LISTEN TO IT
LEARN FROM IT
LET IT DISSOLVE
THIS is my great challenge - to live in love not in fear - and I think it's the perfect place to begin here.
Fear. Are you crippled by it? Do you crumble under its crushing dis-ease? Does it sometimes feel like you are continually circumnavigating the cycle of self criticism? Can you be found cowering in the corner of yourself?
Sometimes, I can answer yes to all of the above.
Sometimes, beyond stopping me in my tracks, fear causes me to back-track. I retreat from opening to an opportunity. I shrink smaller instead of dropping my guard and guise. My frequent lightning bolts of inspiration are met with grumbling, rumbling thunder. Wild winds of worry whirl unhinged and untethered ... leaving me stuck, stagnant and sombre.
I want to rewrite and rewire this.
Writing is one of my greatest joys. It’s also one of my greatest fears: that I’m not good enough, that I don’t have anything new or of value to say, that if I reveal myself people won’t like me …
So I’m going to work on dissolving my fears one at a time: blog post by blog post, revelation by revelation. Mining my depths for jewels. Cracking myself open to let more light in.
As much for myself as for you, I thought I would share my journey: from head to heart, worry to wonder, panic to purpose, and dread to dreams.